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I wish to disapear from this so called world,

Where pain is real and words are sureal,

I'm tired of always hurting the ones i love,

A disgrace this makes me especially to the ones from above,

Everyone wonders why i write in rhyme,

It's the only way to explain what i am truelly feeling inside,

I'm not good with words unless it's down on paper,

I'll always were a mask to make everyone safer,

Happy i may seem to the unwatchful eye,

But truth betold I am slowly dying inside,

I'm exhausted from pushing friends away,

Especially the ones who are with me night and day,

I know all they do is try to make things easier,

But I must always come up with excuses to hate them and that makes me even quezier,

I'm sorry I'm such a bitch that I put you guys through so much pain and sorrow,

I always promise "it will be better tomorrow",

But all I am doing is lying to you and myself,

I finally can admit that yeah I do need help,

I want to change but do not know how,

This is what the world has changed me into for now,

All i know is pain and lies,

Never have i not had an excuse to cry,

Never have i had a true friend until the end,

A soumate to love and cherish who is also my best friend,

Maybe it's new to me and I refuse to see,

That you two are the best thing to happen to me,

You've brought me out of the darkness into the light,

Turned me down the path that is right,

"Don't give up on your hopes and dreams" he says to me late at night,

While you hold me ever so tight,

"A gift from god" she says he is,

While my son plays with his toys in a happy bliss,

Scared I am for the roads gonna be hard,

But with you two by my side it's not so dark,

"Cancer it may be" the nurse says to me,

Your face is all I see,

Smiling at the wonder that I am yours,

And for the fact that you have the sister you've been hunting for,

A fighter she is,

For a loss she has faced,

Yet she stands there strong,

Telling YOU to hold on,

A family we are maybe not in blood,

A mother, a son, a father, and a sister we are good,

Together we stand,

Family we are till the end,

This I promise from the bottom of my heart,

No longer shall you all feel hurt,

For I am done saying I'm sorry,

Don't worry,

Krstal is back,

That is for a fact.





Dedicated to my son, my sister abbie, and my love nitro.

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Avatar07
09:33 Sep 11 2010

its so lovely, it from the heart

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I hear them speaking,

So silently in my head,

There words are unheard of,

Confusing like a forbidden sin,

They speak of death,

They speak of hate,

They promise love,

And of an undesigned fate,

Sing of joyous times,

Scream of broken faith,

Cut the ties,

Of these dying flesh,

No more bindings,

No more chains,

We will control you,

Until your blood drains.